Today was just one of those uncomfortable, slightly stressful days that leave you feeling kind of yucky and glad its over. It was a typical winter day in Ohio: grey, bitterly cold, windy. Every little thing was irritating, and not just to me; everyone seemed to be out of sorts today. Maybe its some sort of pre-storm thing. Tomorrow we're suppose to get 3"-5" of snow. Everyone, egged on by the media, packs the grocery stores and cleans out the staples like we're going to be snowed in for the next 3 months. I try to stay away on crazy days like this, but of course, I ran out of coffee, so I had to go. Survived that.
Ken was on edge. It was his first day of radiation, which he did great with - no problems there, but 2 or 3 different people told him he would need a wheelchair, and that just set him off. Needless to say, we will not be bringing home a wheelchair. The physical therapists are hurting him and he's just so uncomfortable. I feel helpless.
My dad got bit by his dog and his hand got infected.
Then, I get home and Velvet just wants to bark out the window all the time. I just lost it. I put her straight to bed.
Needless to say, I didn't get much "reflecting" done today. Could not focus enough to even try.
Tomorrow is a new day and I'll try again. I'm wanting to pay better attention to what I do and the choices I make and how I feel. Maybe, after the storm passes the sun will shine through and make everything bright and beautiful.
I am so sorry you had a yucky day, Shari :( Gosh, even one of those things would send me off center... Your life is so full. I wish I had a magic wand -- I'm sure you do too.
ReplyDeleteIf misery loves company, then we make a good pair tonight. I've felt weepy all day -- am up now by myself watching the last ballgame of the year alone. James is so tired after taking care of Robert all day he couldn't stay up any longer.
These issues are so minor compared to the troubles that face you. I guess stress is going to get us one way or another -- really, really bad stress like you have, or little piddling stress like what's bothering me. The only thing I can change is how I feel about the situation -- the situation is not going to change... So yes, tomorrow is another day to try again :)
Good luck, Alice. Honestly, I can't imagine the stress you are having. Its not piddling stress, either. It is a big deal to open up your home to someone and turn your world upside down. I hope that it becomes less stressful over time. Take deep breaths. We're all helping each other here and we can't work through our troubles if we don't bring them out in the open. Sometimes, the answers become more obvious when we see the problem in written form; sometimes, they seem less overwhelming when you can size them down to just a few words, and sometimes, someone else will rescue you from your troubles.
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